Days are alomost the same.I wake up, make tea, Sj goes to office,comes home for lunch by when i will lazily cook something,eat lunch together, drink tea in the evening[yeah, i take Boost on certain days too], watch tv, eat agaon n sleep.I believe what i have right now, is the most unfruitful days anyone can ever have.But its not just all my fault. A few days back i realized that im not even allowed to do volunteer jobs, [unless its community service]. I had met with the HOD of Immonology of the UIC.He is a great person. When i reached there i realized the schedule he has.But he still took time to talk to me.I had already taken an appointment. It was at 6 in the evening.I spent the morning brushing up old stuffs after dusting up some notes i had with me.It was wonderful talking to him.He gave me valuable advice and even promised me a job w/o pay in his lab if its legal.I was over whelmed.It would a great opportunity to work in one f the best labs in USA.The next day i checked my mail atleast 15 times for his mail finally before i finally received his mail stating i wasn't allowed to work.It was so disappointing as i was really hopeful about his.May be its not time yet.Im not yet ready to join for PhD.Thats another option i have right now..I have no clue where this is leading by.Im hoping things would be better after i receive a greencard.

1. October is romantic with fall colours

.2. The dream i had last night scares me!

3. Leaves are falling all around, it's the beautiful fall colours i love.

4. My favorite horror movie is the ring because its horrifying.

5. Childhood = good memories.

6. It was a dark and stormy night when we drove for 4 hours to Peoria .

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a drive to the downtown, tomorrow my plans include attending a wedding and Sunday, I want to see a dentist if they are open!

Weird dreams and regular work outs

I have been ignoring my blog since very long.I think i must really try to update it more often. Being idle has made my mind wander in routes where i have high probability of getting lost.I am not sure if its just me not having much to do or if its my mind retrospecting all that i wanted and i have lost.I dont know.I would like to believe its the former.I am still confused about what dreams really mean for us.Do they really mean anything?i dont know.But i think i need not know.Cuz as long as i dont know, i can believe that they dont mean anything...There are certain things thats causing my heart ache at times and i shed some tears.But i just cant forget how wonderful Sj is.i feel he is such a great guy i have no right to hurt him.This belief is what keeps me going...I usually even try to be away from TV programmes which brings to me thoughts i dont cherish.

I am working out regularly with Sj these days.Hoping to shed some pounds.Hoping to have a good weekend.I really feel i must have a romantic get away with Sj.Feel really need it at this time.Not that anything bad has happened for me.I just feel like we need it.Sometimes i even feel i must have kid soon which might keep me engaged.But i dont want to jump into such major decisions without being really prepared for it.

When sleep gets lazy...

just back from a trip.Was a good trip though i wouldn't say, the best.But it was great meeting my friends whom i miss a lot these days at this new place.There r a lot of things happening in my life and others life which make me mystified.Infact i must say, almost everything makes me think twice for right and wrong,sense and non sense.Mostly i THINK, things are the way they are and then there are things i BELIEVE are the way they are cuz thats how i want them to be.
Itz 11.53 at night and I am sleepless.I know its not the mild steroids for my stuffed nasal cavity thats keeping me awake.
Keypads can be great friends when the close ones cant be closer enough.Hoping to have a good night sleep without the non scary but disturbing dreams i get.

PS: The laptop screen looks the best in the darkness when the only light i see comes from it.

Selecting the reality I wish to accept...

• We had a great time in pictured rocks and mackinac island.It was the best trip i had taken in a long time.
• Sj is enjoying his new job.
• Its Onam tomorrow, Im missing my country and home badly.
• Having good times and bad dreams.
• Still doubtful, Do dreams really mean anything?
• Believing that past is experience to survive the present.
• Meeting a Prof the the university again.Hoping to get a job.

1. When I'm sick I'm usually upset.
2. When I take a walk, I think about everything i see around me.
3. Money can't buy happiness but it can buy a ticket to Hawaii[I really wana go there once].
4. Cotton makes me feel hot and leather makes me want to have a fruit leather.
5. The strangest person/character I've had lewd thoughts about was the hero of a novel i read.
6. My favorite color these days is Blue because it brightens my boring days.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to reaching our hotel before its too late at night, tomorrow my plans include a sunset cruise at the Pictured Rocks and Sunday, I want to have lots of fun at the Mackinac Islands!

Update

Going to mackinac island for the long weekend.
Done with packing.
i have to take a shower now.
Sj has an office picnic.Would be back by 5.30
Friends coming over for the trip.
Visiting Pictured rocks too.
Visited a Prof in the university of Chicago a few days back.Trying to find a job.He couldn help me though he suggested a few options.Hoping things would be better.

Living in Chicago!

hi.i am all settled at the new place..I like it here.I like the patio and the homely felling..We bought all the new furniture for the home.I want to buy a dining table too.But we would wait for some time since it would make us broke if we get it right now.But i like this stay.I have a bigger kitchen where cooking is a much better experience than my old one.Moreover the kitchen and the living room are almost together which lets me watch tv while cooking which i enjoy.Sj can come home lunch.His office is very close.I have a tree right outside my patio and like the feeling of the shadow it gives my patio and livingf room.I got an indian cable connection too today. I have all major markets, shopping centers,restaurants,banks.At&t center etc...etc... very close by to my aprtmnet and this makes shopping really easy. Now these are all the wonderful things about my new living place.Coming to the slightly darker side of things...
The maintanance here sucks.The A/C wouldn't run below 72.But they wouldn't replace it till it stops working.Atleast thats what thye say.Disgusting.Its so hot and we have to leave it continously running for 2 days before it touches 70F.I even have the bathroom door lock broken which they repaired twice last week and is again damaged.I just had an argument with the lady at the resident services.There is this one lady over there who really doesn't know how to talk.I dont know who appointed her for the resident service.She argues with me saying that fixing a bathroom lock is not an emergency and i was infuriated.I have guests coming over tomorrow.Its Sj's birthday tomorrow.I gifted him a certificate for massage for an hour at a nearby place tomorrow.

1. If I could be a fly on the wall I would fly away and away and away till tororrow.
2. Jealousy is self murder.
3. When I see a shooting star my wish would be that my family and me stay happy and healthy.
4. I'd rather be eating chicken than pork any day!
5. Certain songs when I hear them make me wanna fly back tot he past.
6. If time were in a bottle I wouldn't keep the bottle with me.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to our send off party, tomorrow my plans include attending another birthday party and Sunday, I want to prepare for Neha's birthday party on Monday [:)]!

Party days

Hi all.We are moving to chicago the coming saturday.As much as im looking forward to it, i really feel disappointed i will have to leave all my friends here.Infact i ahve made more friends in the last month than i have made in past 8 months...Today we had a send off party from all our friends.It was a lot of fun except for the argument i had with Sj when we reutrned.It kind of got hot making Sj is angry and going to bed without me.He even fired a few harsh words on me.It was hurting.But somehow i didn't feel like beginning a big argument,neither did i feel like crying. But it sure felt disheartening.I dont know what i feel.I may end up going back to him myself and trying to settle the fight as i do always.But i really do not want to do it this time.Im watching tv now,There is Nancy Grace coming up.But Nancy is doing the programme today.Somebody else whose name im not sur eof is doing it for her today.Its about a missing 2 year old today.Now coming to children,its neha's birthday on Monday.Im so excited.Im doing a lot of arrangements.Its a theme based birthday.Neha loves Winnie the Pooh...So we are arrranging a winnie the pooh birthday for her.I will write more details of it later.Hope u all have a great weekend.We have another bIrthday party to attend tomorrow, then Neha's birthday party on monday and then again we have a party on next saturday.So its a complete party time though right at this moment im not in a amood for any of this.Hopefully, i wiil feel better by tomorrow.Have a great weekend all.