Love and friendship

Watching Love and Friendship with only 3 other people in the theatre than us... A rough morning with "whatsapp trolling" hopefully will be made up with the movie!!! Phew...! 

When love is lost, seek friends! 

In Geetha

I perused the stanzas of "Geetha" one after the other,

Fervently seeking the mastery of "I".

Searching the answers I seek,

Striving to crack His code
Being my own scout in espionage.

Neither need I attain Brahma nor undying gaiety.

All I whim is a good night sleep,

With my senses not at the land of risen sun

Following an eensy ray of sunlight to

To ebb my vitamin D deficiency.

No! I do not have rickets,
Just the cognitive infirmities that come with it.

Frantic, I read as many pages as I could.

Oh Krishna, I wondered, is it my naviety or the author's brevity

That's making these chapters arduous?

At last night, as my weary self catnapped 

Ears still alert for the buzzing of a note.

He came to me, He came to me!

"Oh Krishna, my Lord, what took you so long", I whined.

Wasn't my devotion ardent?

Weren't my payers loud, my rituals right

Or is it that my flowers weren't bright?
Bless me the answers I seek, I cried.

"I beg thee my lord! Please tell me, please tell me"

"Let me sleep tonight, as calm as my Child next to me".

"Is my agony the reward I bidded"? 

"My lord, kanaiya, I plead thee, Save me!

"Do not cry my Child", He said...

"You are the answers your seek"

Mystified, I opened my eyes, tearful as ever.

Oh lord, you left me awake, 

how many more restive nightfalls shall I endure,

To discern these answers you left unanswered!

That big water falls

If I gather all the tears I cry for you,

And convene all the ache I cannot eschew,

I can lay out a colossal water fall,

So monumental, it will put Chutes de Khones to shame.

I wish to drown deep into it, never to

Be on your face again, never to 

Crawl on your brain again. 

Yet, deep in the darkness of repose 

when water fills my nostrils & 

lungs gasp for oxygen, 
Before ears go numb,  
Before I sink back up,

And after the colors start to fade,

Alas, The heart will wish against all my wills,

To be seen by you, to be held to safety by you.
If you appear, do not take me home.
Ride with me there where I wish to be-

In the land of the rainbows and the reindeers.
There I go, deluded by my weary sanity Again!
I do know, I do know. 
You wouldn't come.... You cannot come....
You are at a chateau, far far away where
Bedrooms are furnished with roses and tulips
Living room adorned with sweet candies and unicorns.
Then some orchids and cacti fill the empty spaces.
You are there, your abode, too far away,
The thick white walls immune to the whomping of the falls.