Braveheart

We have subscribed to Blockbuster and almost everyday we have a new movie to watch.I prefer simple romatic or comedy movies.Sj likes more of the action,fictions and stuffs.Not that i dont like them, but the kinda movies he usually chooses gives me a bad sleep in the night.I hate to watch violence,especially before going to bed.So usually i disapprove of his choice of movies and change the queue he has made in the site.
I couldn't change this movie Braveheart from the list cuz it was shipped before i could do it.I wasn't much interested in watching it and the cd was lying around since 2-3 days.Yesterday night we finally decided to watch it.Trust me, I loved the movie.Its an amazing movie and i loved every bit of it.Never felt there was violence in it though there were so many wars and killing sequences.Whenever there was killing and stuff, i kept my eyes closed.I think the movie was picturised in Scotland,im not sure.Whereever it is, its an amazing location.Its no surprise that the movie won so many Oscars.Couldn't watch the assassination of William Wallace (Mel Gibson) as i couldn't bear to see the torture.Though i just ran inside to avoid watching it, i still couldn't stop myself from crying.I know that sounds silly and soooooo girlish.But then, im a girl afterall and is very proud of being one too.
I guess over the years i have really become very weak at heart.I was a tough girl in school.Infact being the guide's leader and the class captain many times till the 9th standard had titled me with a lot of nick names among the guys.Not that i wasn't a friendly person.I always was and still am an extrovert and jubilant too.I remember my mother always tagging me "miss sturdy"when i was young, whereas my brother was considered to be a weak soul.Its a different story that a silly jobless saturday afternoon fight with this weak soul has left a permanent mark on the side of left eye.Moreover this so called weak soul, my brother has grown upto into a brawny,robust, hansome 6'2" boy now and me, look at me.I feel i have grown more emotionally fragile in the last 4-5 years.I cant exactly figure out the reason for that.May be a few broken freindships or hurt ego in the college days.But still college was fun.
I cry for the silliest of the reasons now.So now im trying to change that about myself.Though emotions and tears come free of cost, i have decided to consider them equalent to my monthly electricity bill.Use less and save more.Hope that works.

This picture is one of my favourites.I took this from a moving car when we were driving in Peoria heights.This picture somehow evokes some deep emotions in me.

Installing Love

i got this mail today and just couldn't help sharing it here.i felt its true.Here, it goes....


Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?
Customer: Well , after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.

So another day has passed and as i had mentioned yesterday, im still kinda not completely sure about the gift for Sajith.I had always thought that the most difficult thing ever is to find the root of (Sinθ – Cos θ). My vivid memories of those mathematical problems are still scary.My subject of interest was always literature.Wanted to do Bachelors in Communicative English and masters in mass communication. Im sure i would have loved that.But then, there s always something called destiny.Being a strong believer in God, i have blind faith in destiny. Now that really doesn't mean that i regreat being a Biotechnologist (dats what i like to call myself after a masters in Biotechnology).I enjoy running a SDS PAGE and feels good when i say people i can make a mutant E.Coli. Doesn't that sound interesting?Atleast it does for me.So no regrets. As always im being drifted away from the topic i started. Okai, so coming to the gift...I have finally, i guess, decided to make a power point with all our photos n stuffs and a very personalised video with my mesages for him (Courtesy: youtube) . Then planning to buy him some wine, one of his favourites. Thought of flowers too, but felt thats so girlish and something i am expecting from him. So jus chucked the idea of buying flowers.Then i would cook some non-veg maily mutton and fish,im sure hr would love that. This is one time when i realized the importance of getting my driving lessons.Since i dont drive i have asked a friend to buy the wine for me.I didn't know how to add music to a powerpoint, so learned all that today.I spent most of the time today trying different stuffs, choosing photos and music and all that stuff.I listened to many tracks and kinda finalalised with First Time Ever I Saw Your Face - Roberta Flack,but then heard this instrumental from Krisna n loved that.Just that i found it too short. Sometimes i feel there is nothing to beat the Indian music.This music just struck me so deep. Anyway i will complete the video n 2-3 days.I might add it here later after Sajith sees it,may be a censored version. So now i am sort of happy since i can claim my gifts as completely my own. I find all this much better than buying a gift online. Hope things work out good and he likes my gifts.If he would have been my boyfriend and not my husband, may be he would have liked anything i give him, But now,after marriage he gets choosy. Hey,Now im not sure about that.Thats what i have heard.But i know he is a honest person though i dont appreciate it always. If he doesn't like my gifts, he would tell me that, might not be now, but after a month.So im just crossing my fingers and hoping that he would like my surprises.

1st Anniversary soon

Today is Jan 22, that makes it exactly 13 more days to my first wedding anniversary.Sajith,my husband says, he cant believe its already a year.But may be because of the large number of events that had taken place last year i had quite a good track of time and knew this was coming.I was initially at Sajith's home with his parents after marriage before i moved to Bangalore with him. Then i had to go to Mumbai for the project submission and it was almost mid Oct before i made it to US.So all these were kind of enough to give me a good idea of the running time.But now I am in great dilemma cuz i have no idea what i would do to make this 1st anniversary a memorable one for him.I wanted to buy a gift and give him a huge surprise. Most of the things i saw in the different websites, either didn't fit in my budget or i didn't like them. I really dont want to end up buying something which wouldn't gain much appreciation.I cant forget buying a cell phone for him for his last birthday which didn't make him very happy cuz it didn't have FM in it.Lord, that wasn't a happy day.So expensive gifts need not bring happiness always. When i give a surprise, it has to be the best even if not very expensive. Actually i had big plans.But now, when i look at the monthly installments we gota pay for the new flat we bought at Kochi, i guess i must hold my purse tight. But surprises need not be expensive, they gota be exiting, like the surprise i gave Sajith when we first met. That was the best. Didn't cost me a thing,but was fun. I went to the airport to receive him without telling him i was gona be there.Infact i had even told him that i wouldn't be there. That was just the beginning. I waited outside when he was with his family and called him on phone and talked to him pretending that i was calling from home.The over-whelmed expression on his face when i walked right in front of him talking to him over the phone is something i can never forget. He just stood there looking at me with an "I Dont Believe Its U" kind of expression and yeah, that was the 1st time we met.Its a lota fun to think of all that.Yeah, so surprises have gota be something of that sort.But what???I have some plans.I was looking at all these videos in youtube and got the idea of making a power point.But doubt how good i am in it.So thinking of making a video.Had asked a freind to make a card with our photographs.But then dropped that plan.Somehow didnn't like the idea much.Shew..... What would i finally do for him??? What about a peotry???hmm....i am not sure what it would turn out to be if i write one... gota try that.Thought of getting a peotry written online, but then, the gift has to be mine,must say my feelings,my love!!! not my feelings expressed in someone else's imagination.... hmm... lemme see if i can come up with some idea.